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Hug me like we r kids...sitting here remembering-when
 i saw the beauty rush out like a might wind
..i never saw it before or bothered to notice
-but now i see it and on it i am focused.......
the gentleness of your voice 
the way you make me feel
 when i see your lovely smile
 the way you laugh and care for me
even go beyond the extra mile.......
i am focused on that
 whether you believe me or not
 my heart aches for you 
and my stomach is in knots.......
now i had to declare
the thoughts of my heart
in hopes that you'd give me ...

Be With Me...

can not stand this. It is just too hard to be away from you. I am usually okay, but at times like this (especially tonight) it just becomes too much to bear. I can not sleep tonight from thinking of you.

I just have to tell you, (your sweetheart's name), to share with you that sacred part of my inner, secret life, the thoughts I think that everyone has but does not always say. I know that sometimes pride gets in the way of expressing emotions. I believe that is the cause of my reticence in telling you how I feel sometimes, that and the fact that passion in an extreme state can be scary, you almost just want to shut it away for fear that it will eventually destroy you. I think of my feelings, my love for you not with craving or with hope or even desire, but just with a kind of wonder that such things could be. You have opened my eyes to how love should feel. I can promise you this, I will never again settle for less.

But, at this time in both of our lives, we are surrounded by possibilities of choice, open doors and wide horizons, which I know, may come between us. But I also know and hope that they could eventually bring us together, with both of us being better people for the time we spent apart. And so for now I function between maybe and maybe not. It's a strange mixture of love and sex and sorrow and hope and longing and faith. And even though you are far away, you're all that I can see, I carry you with me through all my days and I miss you more than I can say. Also, (your sweetheart's name), remember this - I love you no less than if you were right here now.

I know I have a tendency to be impetuous at times - thus the reason for this letter.

The time when i was holding your hand !

The hands of time cannot erase
The thoughts of you and your embrace
The longing for a single kiss
Your touch, your voice, I always miss

The hands of time, like the rolling sea
Cannot wash away what you mean to me
My Heart, My Soul, I'll give to you
The greatest Love I ever knew

The hands of time, that past so fast
My Love for you will always last
To be together, is on my mind
This special love, is one of a kind

The hands of time, We cannot turn back
But Love and Devotion, you will never lack
I vow to you, You will always be
The only Man in my life for me

The hands of time, will stop one day
But there is one thing to you, I'll say
If I should go before you do
I'll be there waiting, for only you.

Don't Leave me

I'm alone. Abandoned. Forgotten and forsaken by everything that ever mattered to me. Don't shut me out. Please, I'm begging you. You are all I have, everything else is gone. I am hanging by a string to life. Sometimes wishing the string would be cut loose. Why can't you understand, my precious one. Do you know I exist? Do I mean anything to you? What have I ever done to deserve this? Sure, I have turned into a hideous monster. That's what I see when I look inside me. The monster has taken over. Invisible as it may seem, it will not let go. I am jealous of you. Liked by everyone. Not having to hide your true identity to the world. Are you too good for me? Yes, you are. Stay away from me if you know what is good for you. For I am nothing but a lie, deceiving everyone.

But you are my air. And although to you, I am nothing but a forgotten memory, I still love you madly. Why do you insist on ignoring me? I will be conformed with the crumbs from your table, just a small breeze to keep me alive. I cannot live without air, but my supply is ending. I would jump in front of a bullet for you, and you know it. So why do you keep on torturing me. Suffocate me already . Life is very long when your lonely, but you are the only one I want.


This monster still has some humanity left. But I cannot forget you and your intoxicating charm, like most could after the passage of time. I couldn't see myself with another, I wouldn't want to. But I've come to realize that any hope is futile. I know it's over, I am just clinging onto false illusions. If only you knew. If only you could hear my plea for mercy. If only you had any idea what I would give up for you to be by my side. I would give up everything.

But you also sleep alone. Who do you have? I don't know, but at least it seems like your happy. I wish I could say that your happiness is all that matters to me. It does, but why can't it be shared with me? Send me the pillow upon which you dream, and I'll send you mine. End my nightmare!!

I've never had anyone to love, never cared until I met you. But I was a coward. My chance had come at last. But a strange fear gripped me and I just couldn't ask. Why couldn't I just tell you all the things I felt about you. Why did it have to be in a note on the day we parted. But then I saw you again. You wrote back. But you clearly did not have any feelings towards me. Which I suppose is understandable.

The day you Left me

The day you left me I felt so empty inside. I knew part of the reason why you were leaving was me. I tried to do everything to keep you here, but I guess you needed space. I thought that when you left it would just be another day, but the truth is that true love never goes away.

The day you left was the hardest thing, because I just knew one day I would wear your ring. The love I have for you will never die no matter how much you make me cry, my heart never lies. every night I think I'm in a dream, but when I wake up I'm wishing the same thing, and that's to have you to hold me for one more night. I will never forget all the happy moments we shared together.

The day you left me, I didn't know what to do, I just knew one day I will be missing you, for you to take our love and not give it another thought.

With Out you

One week without you is like one moment without air, like one day without food and a week without water.

One week without you is like a month without sunshine or shelter.

One week without your voice is like a year absent the sound of music, or of birds, or of rain and thunder.

One week without your comfort is a week without sleep, for my heart knows no rest, and my nights give no peace.

One week without your love, and my days are empty of beauty; though I see about me everywhere others whom are called beautiful, none of them compare with your visage as I gaze at your photo.

One week without speaking with you is like years alone in the wilderness or a deserted island; though I may talk with people on the streets, my soul has no communion.

One week without you is like a year in a prison; though I may come and go as I please, my soul knows no freedom.

One week without you in my life is like no life at all!

I love you forever,

My Last Love Letter

hey EG-SH(EverGreen SweetHeart),

     I dont knew wheather to write this letter as a lover or a friend.Because you dont like me calling you as a lover.But i just wrote what ever  runs on my mind.I told you many times right ,whom ever i love more i wil miss them.Its happend here in patni too..

    It has been a while since the last day together, but for me it seems like years. I never thought that the end of all our moments of love, deep and  passionately emotions, our memories, our smiles and funny things together, our fights, our jokes, our fight with the world to find some peace and  time for each-other, every sweet and salt moment, falling tears, hurts and delights between us, would have an end like this. We crashed every  wall between us, made miles of way together, passed through a lot of pain, hurts and torture just to stay with each-other.

        When I saw you for the first time, standing with unni tom, so beautiful and loving smile, I was amazed that my heart could still beat that hard,you were the most beautiful girl(Ma-la-ga), my heart had laid eyes on in a very long time. Before being with you, I had heard of passion and love and seen it in movies; never dreamed that kind of emotion would ever come to me.

         I still remember the way you made me tingle with your cute and  honest smile. I knew from the first words spoken between the two of us, that things were never going to be the same for me anymore, and that I was going to have to sort out these mysterious feelings that I was having.

         After spending time you, I now know how real passion and love can be. You have opened my heart, and opened the gate to a new world for me.
                  Did you know you had such a power? haha

        My life is starting to become so different, even if my days seem the same. And I must confess that it's you who has changed my outlook. You have opened my eyes to some amazing new possibilities. I will forever be filled with a new sense of wonder and joy, because you have shared about  you  with me.

       Every night i sleep in the bed i think of  you. In every place i go, there is a sign of you. Do you how hard is that? Can you imagine how many memories  are still alive? I dont know how could you wil  forget everything . Could 2 months of memories be so easily deleted? I dont think so.One day you will understand that those feelings are still there, just you got some smoke in your eyes and your feelings were hide somewhere.Hope you will realize what you have really missed...

      I never thought I will miss you that much. I remember every piece of the story, and I lived the 30 Jan every day... The first day. The first time i look in to your eyes. So emotionally. So deep. So unknown. But that look will be lately the most meaningful thing of my life. It was like my breath. Without that look I dont know how to  breath anymore. Your smile put me out of dark. When I was thinking love doesn’t exist , you showed it to me. And I used to love you more than everything.But now, the time has just stopped. The sand-clock is dropped on the floor and is broken. It happened just when I was changing its direction to make it never stop. To start over and over again. It was the fault of my hands. I was thinking of you and forgot to be carefull. I tried to cluethe pieces together again, but it doesn’t work.Everything is so broken. I’m broken. my dream has gone. The smile is now only a memory. I left forever, my love wont disturb you. Its Just disappeared. Just so far away. And is being too quiet here without you. You left me alone…

    All i have from you now is only a picture. It reminds me of our happy times together. It is the smile you always used to give me. If i could only for one moment see you smile at me again... If I could have that look into your eyes one more time… But i know it won’t happen. At least i know that as long as that picture will exist, my memories wont be sweeped for a long time. And i keep it so strong with me. No-one can touch it, even see it. I still keep reminding the sweet of your eyes, the smile that gave me life and i keep hopping i will find you somewhere, before that feeling melts forever. You have been my strongest emotion, my deepest thoughts, my sweetest dream, my meaning, my love, my paradise. I use the last word so much, because if it really exist, it was the real one. I wish I could hold you in my arms just for one last moment, like before. I wish you were here...For a last dance before
everything becomes so dark...

   Thanks for giving me the pleasure of loving you. Thanks for being my everything, even for a while... I will be missing you...

     Yesterday i left patni, probably forever. Even though we are no longer together I knew I could at least see you every once in a while when I walked down the hall. Now i m gone. I miss you. I miss sitting beside you on the cushy couch. I miss smelling your cologne. I miss the way you would look at me when i tel tht i love u. I miss everything about you in every kind of way.You are in a lot of trouble because of me people say. But everything I hear is from others because you never hurt friends. i promised that i  never hurt you. Do you think that I'm mad at you?yes I'm.I wanted you back so much it hurts.
I love you very much!! Never forget that. I miss you and I'm behind you every step of the way no matter how much trouble you are in; I'm here for you always.

Bye..
yours _________________(u can fill it),
S-R-V